Spring

It's amazing. Spring is.

It seems no matter the situation in my life, just a little time out in my back-yard can change my whole day...

I guess there's just something about being around so much bursting life! Bugs, trees, plants, sunshine, dew, flowers, everything! I cannot contain my joy for it all...

And the green. Oh the greenery. There's something about rolling hills, forests, jungles, all of it! If it's green, it awakens some part of my heart. And I can hardly help dancing for joy.

Yesterday we had a whole lot of tornadoes around my area, but the only thing I could focus on the whole time was the sheer green-ness of my backyard. It just seems to stir up my blood...

Anyway, so today, as always, was awash in ups and downs. I hardly have myself figured out in the least, when it comes to my constantly roller-coasting emotions.... Thankfully God does, and He has grace.

But today was admittedly getting rather blue, so I decided to do something about it and for some reason the option of just sitting on my bed spending time alone with God didn't seem to cut it for once...like He had something better for me. And as soon as I walked by a window I knew what that was. I flew bare-footed out my back door and happened upon a strange and lovely sight. My back yard right now is about as green, bursting with life and lushness, as I have ever seen it. Fresh, tasty honeysuckles were everywhere! Wild roses were blooming and the plant life had seemingly overtaken everything it touched. I stood in a foreign world. Surrounded by huge green trees, vines, bushes and all things green! I was over-awed by the majesty. 

I found an alarmingly straight sturdy stick on the ground that fit perfectly in my hand like a sword. Suddenly I was whirling it around in an epic battle between me and dragons, pirates, evil warriors, and demons. I was a soldier of truth and a valiant warrior of righteousness. With every stroke I pierced through my enemies, constantly with the upper-hand, no matter how outnumbered I may have been.

I fought battles, made up stories, talked in british accents to imaginary characters, momentarily had fits of perfect stillness in trying to take in the beauty around me, and was continually the conquering heroin. As I was so many times in my childhood. I let it all flood back as I re-awakened my imagination and sent it soaring.

Then God spoke to me. Words of life and fullness. Encouragement and beauty. Magically restorative no matter the trials of the day. I stared up at His sun in wonder and sipped on some honeysuckles.

Our God truly is a good God. He is not tame. But good. Don't ever let your faith be tamed.

Instead, rise up, fight your battles, breathe in His creation, and face the world on the wild side. 

It's exactly what you were made for.

Spring fever.

Whatever it is,

I've got it.

Holding hands is more than what it seems
involving more complicated parts.
Holding hands is more than what it seems
it's more like holding hearts.

They stood there.
Wrapped in each-others arms.
As one breathed out, the other in.
Quick tempo'd harmonizing hearts.

Both never wanting to let go.
Both fearing the other might.
Hoping perhaps all else would disappear
if they each just held on tight.

They were not feasible.
They could not and should not be.
But sometimes the impossible becomes a small feat
when love pervades the scene.

This is far too long for me to possibly expect you to read it. My apologies.

Oh my, I realized today how incredibely long it's been since I've really blogged... So I figure I have some catching up to do.

Well for starters, several of the friends I made when I visited England, have made a trip here! Which is incredibely exciting and I get the pleasure of hosting two of them in my very own house! How lovely :)

Otherwise-things-happenings-such: It's finally winter! Although it's seemed to have taken its sweet time getting here, (it's been around 50+ degrees all through january) the weather seems to finally understand that it's time for snow (or at least sleet?) and not time for afternoon-walk-weather. Although admittadely, out of all the seasons, winter is probably my least favourite. The so-very-much all-or-nothing-person that I am feels absolutely cheated unless there's at least two feet of snow on the ground. Sometimes I just want to shake my fist at the air and tell it that it had better unleash a blizzard of white fluffy blankets on us or don't have winter at all.....which I probably wouldn't mind. Spring all year sounds just lovely to me.

But of course I heave a sigh and unwillingly acknowledge the necessary presence of some winter and that there are probably lovely people out there who would be heart-broken were they never again to experience the cold...although I must say I cannot imagine why...

Anyway, enough of that, I'm probably the only one I know who uses a blog to rant about the weather...

Other life happenings include college-decision making...or lack of it. I just have to admit I have no earthly idea where in this world I want to go for the next four years...The options are endless, which simply leads to a very frustrated and uncomforatable bad-decision-maker such as myself...

Then there's the fact that with every passing moment I become more and more flustered because I know I'm running out of time... Why does society demand we grow up at a certain age, and go to a certain place, and do a certain thing, all by a certain time? It doesn't seem to leave much room for individuality, does it? I mean, if we're all different why are we all expected to do the same thing at the same time? I just...don't understand...asdfghj.

Anyway, enough of depressing-frustated-complaining-Anna, how out some positivity, eh? Well, let's just say I have a roof over my head, a family that loves me, food to eat, insulation, a working heater /air conditioner, friends that love me, a LICENSE!!!! (I can drive! I can drive! I can drive!), and a beautiful, wonderful, freckle-faced, curly-red-haired date to prom. :)

What was that? I need to explain that last part? Haha well not going to happen. I don't have words.

Anyway! So yes, I have my license, the world is open to me, I am loved, I am cared for, and God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. What else could a girl possibly need?

Live well, make every second count, rely on Him through all, and have a beautiful day. Farewell.

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My best friend of 7 years just got engaged. ...ENGAGED!

OH MY GOSH!

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Did I mention I'm her maid of honor??

And the first friend she told???



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Spring time

A poem in honor of my favorite season. I can't wait for it to come.


Lolli-pops
tube tops
friends and smiles
worth your while
sunshine bright
flooding light
mysteriously attractive
urge to be active
calling my name
as if its a game
green grass
times past
nostalgia, dreams
life as it seems
hopes and ambitions
no inhibitions

Knightly courage
spritely personage
onward looking
run till your booking
wind chill
green hills
taking flight
such great heights
spirit soars
The Lion roars:

Shrinking fears
drying tears
encouraging teams
of exploding dreams
to giant size
a giant sighs
for being outgrown
by our simple hopes

Aspirations
dedications
the world is waiting
no ones hating
our time is now
forget the how
run like the wind
round every bend
fly in the storm
as if it were the norm
defy the rain
forget the pain

Forget all your fears
don't ask why
nor how
just know
that now

Spring-time is here.

The brokenness of man and the fabulousity of God.

I just realized Valentines day is only a month away. Last year I wrote an inspiring blog post about God's love. This year I think I'll just go into my room and cry...

If you can't tell, I'm not doing so fantastic of late....orr maybe I am. I'm  not sure.

It seems that as my highs get higher, my lows get lower. Perhaps the more I seek God and all He has for me the more the devil shoves poop in my face...

So anyway, enough about my lows, I'm not going to concede to let the devil win this round. No. Let's talk about what the most-fabulous-Man-ever is doing in my life.

Well, for starters, He's awesome. Really that's all you need to know. Haha but I'm sure you want to know why. Don't worry, I'll tell you.

He made the moon and the stars with a whisper. He tossed the sun out and blew the planets into orbit. He created the universe in a word, and simply spoke the very idea of light into existence. I mean, do you understand?? Do you really understand how ridiculously big our God is?

Okay so, remembering that, this Guy, this too-amazing-for-words God, not only creates the universe, the light, the stars, and the earth, but He takes the time to painstakingly fashion every single part of you in the womb. All the while knowing what every single moment of your life would look like, down to the constantly changing number of hairs on your head. Yeah. That's how much He cares about you.

Crazy right?! That the bigger we understand Him to be, the more awesome His love for us becomes! He's so awesome. I only wish the English language could even begin to scratch the surface of how awesome/amazing/breath-taking/ginormous/etc.. our God is.

*happy sigh* Anyway, it's good to remember all that. It inspires true fear of the Lord while at the same time revealing the greatness of His love for us.

So don't forget: You are loved. By a ferocious, righteous, merciful, loving, judge. King of Kings, and LORD of Lords. Amen.

Hot Chocolate

Brown and Fuzzy
Warming me down to my toes.
Wiggling those same appendages
Smiling away all my woes.

I went to the orthodontist today...poetic oppurtunity? I think yes.

Tick tock
I hear a clock
invisible unseen
Shifting glances
moving bodies
Next!
drills
a movie plays
Lights glare
people stare
enter your name
wait
wait
Next!
wait
wait
Then hear my name
get up
to wait some more
wait
My name again
awkward glances
stiff conversation
lowering
cowering
drills
poky things
hands in my mouth
how am I supposed to answer your questions with your hands in my mouth?!?
smell latex
taste latex
jerk
prod
poke
cought my lip
poke again
OW!
sorry
oops
-__-
wait
different latexed
hands
same mouth
mine.
grrurgh
how were your holidays?
mffghhrgulre
thats nice
orders
pain
stiffness
tensing
over
more pain
stiff tensing
concentration
over
done yet?
laughter
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