I've been home alone almost this whole weekend.

It's given me lots of time for thought...although I haven't used a lot of it. I've rather shirked thought lately for the most part. If I think I get stressed with all the things I must do, and with all the things that still haunt me from the past. But if I don't think I live quite contentedly and happily in the now. The present. This moment. Hakuna Matata.

The problem is, in that movie, Simba learned that Hakuna Matata doesn't actually solve anything. It's really just running from your past, and shirking the responsibilities of the future.

Sure, as christians we're not supposed to worry about tomorrow, but that doesn't mean we sit around and not do anything about tomorrow. That doesn't mean we don't plan, save, and prepare. Just that we don't get stressed, worried.

So I guess I'm still trying to find that happy medium.

Of grabbing your future by the horns but not getting thrown off the bull into a sea of anxieties.

Otherwise, certain things have happened lately shoving long forgotten memories in my face. ....The boy is showing me attention again. In a very tiny no-one-should-really-get-worked-up-over-this way, but still...

So I decided to just give God the situation and melt away by worshipping Him. It's so much easier than solving my problems on my own.

So anyway, nothing much of consequence to say today. Learning lots of lessons myself, and learning most of all how to trust in Him. Incredibely hard. Extremely rewarding.

That's all. Adieu.