Just do it.

Last night, at my church, my youth pastor preached a sermon where he basically called us out about reading our bibles. My pastor will sometimes call us out on stuff like that. We all call them spiritual spankings. But this was one spiritual spanking I was aboslutely loving. Because, right before church, God had literally opened my eyes to the awesome power of His word. And I couldn't get enough. I had to restrain myself when it came to underlinging things because I was beginning to underline everything! It was a taste of heaven :)

So I was gung-ho and all for the message preached. Seriously though, I was having a rather hard time sitting quietly and listening. Something in my spirit wanted to jump, scream, shout. It was litterally hurting my chest. Hurting how much I wanted everyone to seriously understand. Hurting how much I wanted myself to understand. To comprehend. To put into action. I was about ready to be zapped up into heaven.

I get moods like that sometimes. Where I experience God's power and glory wash over me so much I just want to be raptured right there and then. That's when I usually start crying...the same reason I cried so much in the Voyage of the Dawn Treader. Because I wanted so badly to jump into the screen and wrap my arms in Aslan's mane...

But I know why I'm not raptured here and now. I know that God has a bunch of work laid out for me here on earth. I know he has BIG plans for my life that I can't even begin to comprehend right now. And it's exciting...but I'd still just like to zap up there and be with Him forever more sometimes. :)
I just love Him so much, I can't help it.

Anyway, I figured in that moment, that since I couldn't just be raptured then and there, that I should be doing my best to serve God here. And to do so I needed to start by digging furiously into His very words He has given us. Life's instruction book that never get's outdated. That lasts forever. That holds unimaginable power. ... Serious power.

So where did these thoughts lead me? Well, back to an old idea that I had discussed with several people before who were all in favor. A bible study.

Now, I know what you're thinking; A bible study? That's it? That idea's been around forever! And I know that. But somehow it seems so much more special when you're helping to orchestrate it. When you and your peers come up with the idea yourselves and don't have an adult starting it or forcing you into it. When it results out of a simple, yet humongous desire for the word. A desire for more of God. A hunger. A passion. An awakening.

So, I thought to myself, how do I tell everyone aout this? And what would be the best time? And where? I knew what I felt it should be like; knd of a worship/prayer/bible meeting. We could bring guitars...or in my case a ukulele lol, worship God, spend time on our knees, and share about what God had been revealing to us and what was so freaking amazing that we read in the bible that week. But how do I get everyone else on board? I thought.

Then God put an idea in my head.

"Just go up there, where Jeff(my youth pastor) is, and say it.
Just say it.
Tell them your idea and ask if anyone feels the same. and if they do when would be best.
Just do it."

I was terrified.

Now, let it be known that I hav no fear of public speaking...which might be why God chose me to do this lol.
However, I do have a fear of getting up in front of all my peers and spitting out a pretty outrageous idea, at least for teenagers who claim to have no time, and claiming God wants us to do it.

So that's where I had a mini fight with myself...or with God.

"Just do it"
"But..but what if this happens? or..you know..umm...they...what if they think...what if this? What if that?"

"Just do it."

So I decided to. And as soon as I made up my mind to do it my chest started hurting more. I knew this was something that desperately needed to be said. Something that needed to get out. Get out of my chest.

So I got it off my chest.

Jeff finished with a prayer and as soon as he said Amen, I shouted, "Wait!" before all the people got up and started talking. I ran up onstage and I told them my idea. I was shaking like a leaf lol.
Now, I know I told you I have no fear of public speaking, but my body does. You see, I love the stage, but whenever I'm on it my whole body starts practically having mini siezures lol. But I did it. I got it out. And God followed through. A lot of people were all for it. They seemed excited too, and now we have the first one set up.

God is so great, is He not? :)