Change

It's amazing how a little cool front with a nice breeze can change your whole perspective on life.

Today the weather changed. It'd been hot. Really hot. "Welcome to hell" kind of hot. But it is Texas so you won't find me complaining.

In fact I do often enjoy sitting out in the over-bearing sun sometimes. When you get just a bit too chilly inside so you go sit out in the grass and immediately your entire skin is covered by goosebumps. As if the sharp change in the temperature leaves your body unsure as to whether it's cold or hot. Yeah, I enjoy that feeling.

But today when I walked out I was greeted by a pretty gift-wrapped little surprise.

The air felt cool.

I was amazed. I hadn't felt a cool breeze in ages. I drank it in as I shivered (little people get cold easier.)

Later in the day the sun reached it's apex. It warmed the cool earth below creating a perfect sun-shiney feeling with just the right amount of cool breezes in the air. I got the feeling that I just had to do something! And suddenly, I knew what it was:

Bike riding! A sport neglected by me for years (actual years lol) because I had always been too lazy, too cold, or too hot, was finally calling to me. Excitedly I ran and found my old bike in the shed, quickly pumped fresh air into both tires, puzzled over how to raise the seat, realized I would need tools, figured out what tools, and used those tools to painstakingly-with-hard-manual-labor raise the seat. I then, when finshed, stood up with previously-mentioned tools raised above my head and declared loudly to the entire neighborhood that "Yes! I can use tools!"

Then after putting those same tools away, an ever-growing sense of accomplishment flooded over me as I rode my bike up and down the street with pride, braided hair flapping behind me. I felt like I should be in a movie. :)

I then, to perserve my good mood as well as spread it to others went and did some much-asked-for chores that my parents had been nagging me about for a while.

I then proudly, with face beaming, announced my accomplishments to my said-parental units as I soaked in their smiling faces.

Then, in an effort to be extra produtive on this fine day, I asked my dad to show me everything he'd been wanting to show me for a while about the car, before I get my license. It took an hour but I courageously actually tried to process everything he said. As well as try and comprehend all the endless terms about what goes where and powers what and what that thing is called and how many times your supposed to check this etc... Did I mention I also learned to change a tire on my own? :D

Haha anyway, on a more serious note, the day didn't start off as grand as all that.

Actually, it started with me cramping and getting into fights with my parents. Not so great.

But when I went outside to cool off afterwards (figuritively and literally) God grabbed my attention with a cool breeze and made my day by what He said.

I was down, I was lonely, I felt sick, mad, lonely and was still ever-hurting from past ...erm, things. I was in a rut that I felt I could never get out of and was just over all feeling like an unredeemable sinner with no friends and whom nobody liked.

But you know, God never lets us stay in a rut, does He? For He then proceeded to tell me how much He liked me and how, if God likes you a whole lot, why does it matter if anyone else does or doesn't?

I then fired back, I argued and told Him all the things wrong with me and why I'm such a horrible person whom no one likes.

He then listed a long list of all the things He liked and loved best about me. Saying all sorts of encouraging things and building me up like only God can. I left that spot with a renewed attitude toward life and all my problems.

Thank God for His goodness :)