A heart breaks over the
silliest things...
relationships
rejection
injustice
loneliness
a world turned
upside down
for the lost
the least
for so many things
...maybe not so silly
A heart breaks
far to frequently...
for the lost
for the least
for the hurts
for the pain
for the loneliness and rejection
for this world
for the constancy
of injustice
it happens all the time...
A heart is all ways
under so much pressure
being twisted
and turned
screaming in pain
this way and that...
constantly bombarded
by emotions
feelings
choices.
Some choose to ignore it
yes some ignore
there very own heart
They lock it up
They swallow the key
and build
a ten foot wall
around it
made of brick.
But a heart neglected dies
it turns to stone
and a stone heart
is no heart at all.
Some take their heart
and wear it on their sleeve
handing it to every stranger
that happens to
pass them by
They give in to emotion
they live a life of
feeling
it controls them.
But a heart dies
when it is overused
ripped out
and put on a sleeve.
Some choose to live
through it
to do the motions
to bear their heart
but not be affected
they live life
not really ever
having lived
at all.
But a heart dies
when it is set in the motions
in the body
and not listened to.
And then their are the some
who make the choice
who choose to give
their heart away
they give it to God
who takes its breaking
who takes its twisting
who take its screaming
and holds it
softly
in His hands
forever
never
letting go.
And a heart given to God
is the very best thing,
for any heart,
of all.
Sunday, December 27, 2009
Sunday, December 20, 2009
Anna's pet peeves
Lately, different things have been frustrating to me. So, I thought I would have a nice vent by writing a blog post. So get ready to hear some of my pet peeves.
1. Things that don't make any sense like why these things are called "pet peeves" anyway.
2. People who think that saying the first letter of the cuss word instead of the word itself makes everything ok. Come on, you mean the same thing!!!
3. Fingernail-on-chalk-board sound or anything remotely like it.
4. People who try to act cool but aren't.
5. People who try to act cool by being mean to other people...this almost should be under the first one for me because it doesn't make any sense!
6. Injustice
7. People who laugh at your beliefs.
8. People who come over to you only to talk to the friend you're with and completely ignore you...really???
9. People who judge you before they really know you...I have to admit I have fallen under this category before...I'm not proud of it.
10.People who accuse you of things that are not true.
11. People who will talk to you around some people, but ignore you around others: aka two-faced people.
12. People who are jerks but are cute and make you like them anyway.
13. People who write abnormally long emails...ha ha I do this too
14. People who say one thing and do another aka Hypocrites
15. People who start too many sentences in a row with "People who".
16. When people argue just for the sake of arguing.
17. Arguing when you know for sure you are right but you can't seem to win.
18. Arguing when you know your wrong.
19. Those who act like they're your boss even when they're not...guilty again...
20. When things are not symmetrical
21. Cliques
22. Gossip
23. Those who belittle and tear down.
24. Egos
25. Pride/Snottiness/stuck-upness/jerkness
26. People who think they are perfect and know everything.
27. When you have all these thoughts in your head and when you try to say them they all disappear.
28. When you tell someone something a million times and they still don't remember/get it.
29. When things don't work the way I want them too: aka life.
30. ummmm I've been hit by a # 27...sooo that's all folks :)
1. Things that don't make any sense like why these things are called "pet peeves" anyway.
2. People who think that saying the first letter of the cuss word instead of the word itself makes everything ok. Come on, you mean the same thing!!!
3. Fingernail-on-chalk-board sound or anything remotely like it.
4. People who try to act cool but aren't.
5. People who try to act cool by being mean to other people...this almost should be under the first one for me because it doesn't make any sense!
6. Injustice
7. People who laugh at your beliefs.
8. People who come over to you only to talk to the friend you're with and completely ignore you...really???
9. People who judge you before they really know you...I have to admit I have fallen under this category before...I'm not proud of it.
10.People who accuse you of things that are not true.
11. People who will talk to you around some people, but ignore you around others: aka two-faced people.
12. People who are jerks but are cute and make you like them anyway.
13. People who write abnormally long emails...ha ha I do this too
14. People who say one thing and do another aka Hypocrites
15. People who start too many sentences in a row with "People who".
16. When people argue just for the sake of arguing.
17. Arguing when you know for sure you are right but you can't seem to win.
18. Arguing when you know your wrong.
19. Those who act like they're your boss even when they're not...guilty again...
20. When things are not symmetrical
21. Cliques
22. Gossip
23. Those who belittle and tear down.
24. Egos
25. Pride/Snottiness/stuck-upness/jerkness
26. People who think they are perfect and know everything.
27. When you have all these thoughts in your head and when you try to say them they all disappear.
28. When you tell someone something a million times and they still don't remember/get it.
29. When things don't work the way I want them too: aka life.
30. ummmm I've been hit by a # 27...sooo that's all folks :)
Sunday, December 13, 2009
The differences between happiness and joy
Today my pastor preached a message about joy. And it really got me thinking about the differences between joy and happiness. What are they? And how exactly are they different? Well you might as well settle on down because I am about to give you a glimpse into the ramblings of my mind as I sort out the answers to these questions in my head. And yes, this is all thought up as I go along. Feel free to grab some popcorn...I would. (don't worry, I'll wait for you) :)
Now if it is all popped and ready, (and hopefully just a mite burned because it tastes better that way,) I am going to start off with a statement of belief. I believe that while happiness is just a feeling, joy is a state of mind. Now comes the explanation: I once heard a saying that went like this; "Happiness is a choice." I really liked it at the time. I thought it had a good message - that we should choose always to be happy. But then I stumbled upon a problem. I had talked to a friend of mine on the phone. She wasn't doing so good. She said she was tired of pretending to be happy all the time..when she really wasn't. I was stumped. Where, I wondered, was the dividing line between choosing everyday to be happy, and just pretending to be?
Well I am happy to say that I finally think I have figured that out. You wanna know the answer? It's simply this; the difference between happiness and joy. Explanation? Joy is really the choice, happiness is just an emotion that comes and goes. What I really want you to understand is what joy is, exactly. Let me give you an example. Have you ever read the book Pollyanna? If you haven't I suggest you do so. It's not exactly the greatest book ever written, and it's pretty slow at parts, but it has an amazing message. It's about a little orphan girl who goes to live with her (not exceptionally very nice) Aunt Polly. This girl has had a tough life, it seems that everything has gone wrong for her, but amazingly, through it all, she is glad. She remembers back when her father was alive and they used to read the scriptures about gladness. They counted the verses together and found so many times that God said to be glad and rejoice that they came up with the glad game. The way you play is to simply find something to be glad about in every situation. Like, for instance, when Pollyanna was hoping so bad for a doll to come in the missionary barrels that came for the orphans, but the only thing that showed up was an old pair of crutches. She found that she could be glad simply because of the fact she didn't need the crutches. And this is a perfect example of choosing to have joy in any and every situation; whether good or bad.
Really though, gladness, joy, and happiness are all just names. Labels, that we have assigned to different feelings, choices, and emotions. It doesn't matter particularly which one you assign to another, but that you understand the things you are assigning them to. It is simply this; I understand happiness to be an emotion that comes and goes, and joy to be a choice we make every day. To choose to rejoice in the Lord always, and again I say rejoice!
Now if it is all popped and ready, (and hopefully just a mite burned because it tastes better that way,) I am going to start off with a statement of belief. I believe that while happiness is just a feeling, joy is a state of mind. Now comes the explanation: I once heard a saying that went like this; "Happiness is a choice." I really liked it at the time. I thought it had a good message - that we should choose always to be happy. But then I stumbled upon a problem. I had talked to a friend of mine on the phone. She wasn't doing so good. She said she was tired of pretending to be happy all the time..when she really wasn't. I was stumped. Where, I wondered, was the dividing line between choosing everyday to be happy, and just pretending to be?
Well I am happy to say that I finally think I have figured that out. You wanna know the answer? It's simply this; the difference between happiness and joy. Explanation? Joy is really the choice, happiness is just an emotion that comes and goes. What I really want you to understand is what joy is, exactly. Let me give you an example. Have you ever read the book Pollyanna? If you haven't I suggest you do so. It's not exactly the greatest book ever written, and it's pretty slow at parts, but it has an amazing message. It's about a little orphan girl who goes to live with her (not exceptionally very nice) Aunt Polly. This girl has had a tough life, it seems that everything has gone wrong for her, but amazingly, through it all, she is glad. She remembers back when her father was alive and they used to read the scriptures about gladness. They counted the verses together and found so many times that God said to be glad and rejoice that they came up with the glad game. The way you play is to simply find something to be glad about in every situation. Like, for instance, when Pollyanna was hoping so bad for a doll to come in the missionary barrels that came for the orphans, but the only thing that showed up was an old pair of crutches. She found that she could be glad simply because of the fact she didn't need the crutches. And this is a perfect example of choosing to have joy in any and every situation; whether good or bad.
Really though, gladness, joy, and happiness are all just names. Labels, that we have assigned to different feelings, choices, and emotions. It doesn't matter particularly which one you assign to another, but that you understand the things you are assigning them to. It is simply this; I understand happiness to be an emotion that comes and goes, and joy to be a choice we make every day. To choose to rejoice in the Lord always, and again I say rejoice!
Thursday, December 3, 2009
Random Poetry
I have been in a poetic mood of late an was wondering if you'd like to hear some of my own pieces? I have to admit they're nothing like the modern flowery style of beautiful writing that I hear quite often. They're more of just fun little jottings I randomly came up with. So yeah here goes:
There once was a watchmaker who lived in the woods
In a cottage of all places
He sat in his house and did his job
All day making faces. ;)
This next one I thought was rather cool because if you say it out loud it actually sounds like someone chewing gum :)
Smack, smack. Chew, chew
A piece of gum for me and you
Up and down and all around
Smacking and slurping then spit on the ground
Blow, blow. Pop, pop
Blow lots of bubbles and don’t stop
Chew it up and spit it out
Tastes a lot better than sauerkraut
I had to write a Limerick for school and this is what happened :)
In the fall the leaves fall off the trees
Leaving you to rake all of the leaves
I must say it’s not fun,
But when the raking is done
You may jump in them all as you please
This next one was probably the hardest poem I ever wrote because it is a haiku and has far too many rules for the tiny poem it creates:
The cat flicked her tail
As she watched the dangling string
Green eyes burning holes
Last but not least I shall give you some advice on how to write your own poem. You ready? Here it is:
If you were to write a poem
You first must think of a theme
Then of the style and then of the form
And all of those important things
When all of these have been thought through
Take your pen and start to jot.
For poetry will not work for you
If you never make it past the thought.
And thus endeths this blogeth post. I hope you liked it. :)
There once was a watchmaker who lived in the woods
In a cottage of all places
He sat in his house and did his job
All day making faces. ;)
This next one I thought was rather cool because if you say it out loud it actually sounds like someone chewing gum :)
Smack, smack. Chew, chew
A piece of gum for me and you
Up and down and all around
Smacking and slurping then spit on the ground
Blow, blow. Pop, pop
Blow lots of bubbles and don’t stop
Chew it up and spit it out
Tastes a lot better than sauerkraut
I had to write a Limerick for school and this is what happened :)
In the fall the leaves fall off the trees
Leaving you to rake all of the leaves
I must say it’s not fun,
But when the raking is done
You may jump in them all as you please
This next one was probably the hardest poem I ever wrote because it is a haiku and has far too many rules for the tiny poem it creates:
The cat flicked her tail
As she watched the dangling string
Green eyes burning holes
Last but not least I shall give you some advice on how to write your own poem. You ready? Here it is:
If you were to write a poem
You first must think of a theme
Then of the style and then of the form
And all of those important things
When all of these have been thought through
Take your pen and start to jot.
For poetry will not work for you
If you never make it past the thought.
And thus endeths this blogeth post. I hope you liked it. :)
Monday, November 16, 2009
Secret
I have finally decided to share my biggest secret with the world. Not even my closest freinds know this one. Are you ready? Here it is;
I like elf shoes more than converse shoes...
*GASP*
I like elf shoes more than converse shoes...
*GASP*
Saturday, November 14, 2009
You are you.
So today I determined that Fridays are alot like the letter "y". The connection? They both sometimes are, and sometimes aren't. Friday is sometimes consider part of the weekend, and is also sometimes a weekday. Y is sometimes a vowell, and sometimes a consonant. There are probably tons of other examples like these, but today my brain is too lazy to think of them.
Anyway, the reason I brought this up, is to point out the similarities between these and humans. Humans, us crazy humans. Sometimes we are, and sometimes we aren't. Clarification? Sometimes were happy. Sometimes were sad. Sometimes were thankful. Sometimes were mad. Sometimes we write poems without even realizing it lol.
We all go through changes, some for the better, and some for the worse. We all have our good days, and our bad days. All of our attitudes, all of our moods, are constantly changing. We all have our days when were at least somewhat happy. For some, this means jumping off the walls crazily, and then there are some who are content to give a small smile. This doesn't mean one is happier then the other, they just express it differently.
We also all have our sad,mad,bad days. Some express this by bawling their eyes out, some just pretent they're happy while they hurt inside, some do both.
My point I really want to get across though, is the way we steriotype people.
Say for example you meet someone for the first time. Your first impression of the person is when they are acting bouncy, cheerful, happy, bubbly, and talkitive. You continue to see them in this group type setting for a while, and develop a friendship with them. Then say, one day, you happen to stumble upon them in the library. They are quiet, calm, chill, peaceful, and not very talkitive. For most of us, our first reaction is to ask them if they're ok. I find this quite funny. In fact, the very statement; "You don't seem yourself today." makes me crack up. What did you think they'd become? Big bird? They're are still the exact same person you know, just in a different mood. All of our moods are ourselves. Granted, we have our bad days that inspire bad moods, and good days for good moods, and so on and so forth. So asking someone if they're ok that day because they're in a bad mood is reasonable. But I still find it funny how we assume someone is allways the way we picture them, everytime they are content and normal.
Lets go back to the girl in the library. You ask her if she's ok. She seems surprised at the question, and she says she is fine. And let me tell you something, unless you are her boyfreind, or a very close freind, believe her. If a girl says they're ok it means one of three things; They are not doing good and they want to find out if you really care enough to keep pursueing the question, they don't want to talk about it, or they really are ok. But enough about the way girls think, that was just a freebee for the guys lol.
Anyway, sometimes people are just different in different scenarios, and that's ok! Everone I talk to seems to think being yourself involves being the same person everywhere you go. I agree with that to the extent of the fact that you should have the same values and morals everywhere you go, but not anyfarther. Just because someone is a louder person one place, and a quieter person another, is NOT a bad thing! You're still you, wherever you are!
Let me give you a real life example; me. If you were to meet me around my closest friends, I would be fun and loud and fearless, if you were to meet me at the library by myself, I would be relaxed, quiet, and looking forward only to the sweet smell of a book while curling up on the couch; probly not too interested in doing anything crazy at that moment. The case even applies to different groups of people; I probably wouldn't be as bubbly and loud around my older cool friends as I would around my younger freinds. This is not a bad thing, it just has to do with the situation at hand, and taking into acount what people will think of you. I know what just happened, alarms went up in your head saying; "Uh-oh, she just cares too much what others think of her, thats why she's saying all this, because she just wants to justify being self-conscious." - not true. I'm just trying to be smart.
For instance, if you are around a bunch of people who are know for gossiping and spreading rumors, you should prabably be more careful of your actions and what you are saying, just in case it winds up everybody in school knowing about it. You get what I'm saying? We, as humans, also don't like people judging us, so, I am more careful around people I know might be judging me. But, that's where it gets iffy. You can't let your life be run by the thought that someone mught be judging you. Sometimes you just have to be the way you want to be without caring what others think....alot of times.
All that to say this, we have different personalities all wound together that make us especially who we are. We simply display different sides of ourselves in different settings at different times. This is not a bad thing, it is human nature, and sometimes even smart; I wouldn't go talk about how much I hate Obama's policies at a democractic rally....it might not be good for my health.
So I hope you get my point. You are who you are, wherever you are. You are you.
Anyway, the reason I brought this up, is to point out the similarities between these and humans. Humans, us crazy humans. Sometimes we are, and sometimes we aren't. Clarification? Sometimes were happy. Sometimes were sad. Sometimes were thankful. Sometimes were mad. Sometimes we write poems without even realizing it lol.
We all go through changes, some for the better, and some for the worse. We all have our good days, and our bad days. All of our attitudes, all of our moods, are constantly changing. We all have our days when were at least somewhat happy. For some, this means jumping off the walls crazily, and then there are some who are content to give a small smile. This doesn't mean one is happier then the other, they just express it differently.
We also all have our sad,mad,bad days. Some express this by bawling their eyes out, some just pretent they're happy while they hurt inside, some do both.
My point I really want to get across though, is the way we steriotype people.
Say for example you meet someone for the first time. Your first impression of the person is when they are acting bouncy, cheerful, happy, bubbly, and talkitive. You continue to see them in this group type setting for a while, and develop a friendship with them. Then say, one day, you happen to stumble upon them in the library. They are quiet, calm, chill, peaceful, and not very talkitive. For most of us, our first reaction is to ask them if they're ok. I find this quite funny. In fact, the very statement; "You don't seem yourself today." makes me crack up. What did you think they'd become? Big bird? They're are still the exact same person you know, just in a different mood. All of our moods are ourselves. Granted, we have our bad days that inspire bad moods, and good days for good moods, and so on and so forth. So asking someone if they're ok that day because they're in a bad mood is reasonable. But I still find it funny how we assume someone is allways the way we picture them, everytime they are content and normal.
Lets go back to the girl in the library. You ask her if she's ok. She seems surprised at the question, and she says she is fine. And let me tell you something, unless you are her boyfreind, or a very close freind, believe her. If a girl says they're ok it means one of three things; They are not doing good and they want to find out if you really care enough to keep pursueing the question, they don't want to talk about it, or they really are ok. But enough about the way girls think, that was just a freebee for the guys lol.
Anyway, sometimes people are just different in different scenarios, and that's ok! Everone I talk to seems to think being yourself involves being the same person everywhere you go. I agree with that to the extent of the fact that you should have the same values and morals everywhere you go, but not anyfarther. Just because someone is a louder person one place, and a quieter person another, is NOT a bad thing! You're still you, wherever you are!
Let me give you a real life example; me. If you were to meet me around my closest friends, I would be fun and loud and fearless, if you were to meet me at the library by myself, I would be relaxed, quiet, and looking forward only to the sweet smell of a book while curling up on the couch; probly not too interested in doing anything crazy at that moment. The case even applies to different groups of people; I probably wouldn't be as bubbly and loud around my older cool friends as I would around my younger freinds. This is not a bad thing, it just has to do with the situation at hand, and taking into acount what people will think of you. I know what just happened, alarms went up in your head saying; "Uh-oh, she just cares too much what others think of her, thats why she's saying all this, because she just wants to justify being self-conscious." - not true. I'm just trying to be smart.
For instance, if you are around a bunch of people who are know for gossiping and spreading rumors, you should prabably be more careful of your actions and what you are saying, just in case it winds up everybody in school knowing about it. You get what I'm saying? We, as humans, also don't like people judging us, so, I am more careful around people I know might be judging me. But, that's where it gets iffy. You can't let your life be run by the thought that someone mught be judging you. Sometimes you just have to be the way you want to be without caring what others think....alot of times.
All that to say this, we have different personalities all wound together that make us especially who we are. We simply display different sides of ourselves in different settings at different times. This is not a bad thing, it is human nature, and sometimes even smart; I wouldn't go talk about how much I hate Obama's policies at a democractic rally....it might not be good for my health.
So I hope you get my point. You are who you are, wherever you are. You are you.
Monday, November 2, 2009
Challenge
So guess what world? I have discovered something! And it is a very good and happy something. Which is good, because I like good and happy things! Anyway, I discovered that, quite simply, I like being me. But let me back up and show you how I have reached this conclusion.
The other day....ok month, I issued myself a challenge; I was going to try as hard as possible to be myself in every situation. I want to let you know right off the bat that I have never had more fun than the past couple months. Wait, scratch that, I have had more fun, back when I was a little kid that didn't have a care in the world about anything and didn't have any drama. But let's save drama for another post shall we?
This past month or so I have found myself making choices in every situation, whether or not to sing a song or not, to wear certain clothes or not, to walk a funny way or not, to laugh at stupid things or not, to do crazy things only I would do or not. I must admit, that being myself didn't allways win. I did choose to be normal sometimes, and sometimes that's ok, but sometimes it's not. Sometimes, we need to be exactly how God created us to be. And you know what I found out through all this? Being yourself is fun! I truly have enjoyed not caring what people think of me! It's like a whole new world! I've decided I'm going to try and keep it up. I want to be me forever. Wouldn't that be awesome! Being your own person your whole life! Being yourself, who you are in God, forever. Yeah, thats how I want to live. :) How about you?
That's it! I'm going to issue you a challenge! For the next month just be who you are whithout caring what others think, see how you like it. Just be the way you were created in God, and tell me if your happier, I almost gaurentee you will be. So yeah, try it, you'll like it!....oh dear I sound like infomercial now....I'm gonna stop.
The other day....ok month, I issued myself a challenge; I was going to try as hard as possible to be myself in every situation. I want to let you know right off the bat that I have never had more fun than the past couple months. Wait, scratch that, I have had more fun, back when I was a little kid that didn't have a care in the world about anything and didn't have any drama. But let's save drama for another post shall we?
This past month or so I have found myself making choices in every situation, whether or not to sing a song or not, to wear certain clothes or not, to walk a funny way or not, to laugh at stupid things or not, to do crazy things only I would do or not. I must admit, that being myself didn't allways win. I did choose to be normal sometimes, and sometimes that's ok, but sometimes it's not. Sometimes, we need to be exactly how God created us to be. And you know what I found out through all this? Being yourself is fun! I truly have enjoyed not caring what people think of me! It's like a whole new world! I've decided I'm going to try and keep it up. I want to be me forever. Wouldn't that be awesome! Being your own person your whole life! Being yourself, who you are in God, forever. Yeah, thats how I want to live. :) How about you?
That's it! I'm going to issue you a challenge! For the next month just be who you are whithout caring what others think, see how you like it. Just be the way you were created in God, and tell me if your happier, I almost gaurentee you will be. So yeah, try it, you'll like it!....oh dear I sound like infomercial now....I'm gonna stop.
Sunday, October 18, 2009
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Shining light
Philippians 1: 21 - 26
For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain. If I am to go on living in the body, this will mean fruitful labor for me. Yet what shall I choose? I do not know! I am torn between the two: I desire to depart and be with Christ, which is better by far; but it is more necessary for you that I remain in the body. Convinced of this, I know that I will remain, and I will continue with all of you for your progress and joy in the faith, so that through my being with you again your joy in Christ Jesus will overflow on account of me.
I love this! I found it today and it pretty much sums up all of what God has been teaching me lately and even adds in some missing puzzle peices. Read it again, except this time in my own words:
For me, to live is Christ and to die is even better. If I'm gonna go on living in this world, it means fruitful work for me. So what do I do? I'm completely torn between the two: I want so bad to leave and be with God, which is way better! But it is more important for you that I stay here. So believing this, I know that I'll stay, and that I'll continue on with all of you so that you can grow and have joy in Christ. That through my being here your joy and happiness in Christ Jesus will overflow 'cause of me. Little ole' me :)
God is just amazing isn't He? The way He works so many little things in our lives all together, inertwined, to teach us about himself so we can grow. It's amazing! He's amazing! I can't wait to see Him! How badly I want to see Him and be able to worship Him for ever! But I know that's not His plan. "God is not willing that any man should perish in sin." I know he wants me to stick around to keep that from happening. I know he wants me to be a shining light in a world of darkness. And I will do that happily :) I'm gonna be a happy, salty, light! ;) I want to rub off on the world! I want to save the world! To save it for Christ! And that's the only good reason anyone will ever have for living. Is it yours?
For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain. If I am to go on living in the body, this will mean fruitful labor for me. Yet what shall I choose? I do not know! I am torn between the two: I desire to depart and be with Christ, which is better by far; but it is more necessary for you that I remain in the body. Convinced of this, I know that I will remain, and I will continue with all of you for your progress and joy in the faith, so that through my being with you again your joy in Christ Jesus will overflow on account of me.
I love this! I found it today and it pretty much sums up all of what God has been teaching me lately and even adds in some missing puzzle peices. Read it again, except this time in my own words:
For me, to live is Christ and to die is even better. If I'm gonna go on living in this world, it means fruitful work for me. So what do I do? I'm completely torn between the two: I want so bad to leave and be with God, which is way better! But it is more important for you that I stay here. So believing this, I know that I'll stay, and that I'll continue on with all of you so that you can grow and have joy in Christ. That through my being here your joy and happiness in Christ Jesus will overflow 'cause of me. Little ole' me :)
God is just amazing isn't He? The way He works so many little things in our lives all together, inertwined, to teach us about himself so we can grow. It's amazing! He's amazing! I can't wait to see Him! How badly I want to see Him and be able to worship Him for ever! But I know that's not His plan. "God is not willing that any man should perish in sin." I know he wants me to stick around to keep that from happening. I know he wants me to be a shining light in a world of darkness. And I will do that happily :) I'm gonna be a happy, salty, light! ;) I want to rub off on the world! I want to save the world! To save it for Christ! And that's the only good reason anyone will ever have for living. Is it yours?
Sunday, October 4, 2009
Music
Music! What is it about a great song that gives you chills, gets itself caught swirling around your head, and makes you smile every time you hear it? What is it that God put in us that gave everyone a favorite type of music that's just irrisistable to them. I think everyone has that, don't they? At least one type of music thats makes them smile. For instance, right now I have my ipod stuck in my ears and am listneing over and over to owl city. (And loving every minute of it!)
What is music anyway? Sometimes I think it's supernatural. I mean it's amazing! Think about it! Think of one of your favorite songs. You remember most of the words right? Amazing! Music even helps your memory. It makes you bounce, twirl, swoon, laugh, sing, and clap along. And there are so many different types! Soft rock, rap, hip hop, rock, R&B, alternative, classical, acapella, blues, and bagpipes are just some of them!
We wouldn't even have any type of dance without it. It inspires all waltz's, cha cha's, jig's, swings, breakdancing, and ballet. It can change our whole mood in two minutes! Again I say, what is it? It's sort of like time; allways changing, allways moving on, never explainable, never understandable, and we would all die if it completely stopped....at least I would ;) It's amazing! Learning some instruments can even make you smarter, help you study, and seriously help out with boredness. Just think about how much of your life has had something to do with music. Music lessons, singing as loud as possible when your home alone, tapping your toe, clapping your hands, bobbing your head, buying ipods, listening to the radio, talking about it with friends, going crazy because you have a song stuck in your head, praising God, humming, and whistling. My own thoughts usually even have background music playing across my head with them! I guess all I can really say it that it's definitely one of my more favorite parts of Gods ingenious creation!
What is music anyway? Sometimes I think it's supernatural. I mean it's amazing! Think about it! Think of one of your favorite songs. You remember most of the words right? Amazing! Music even helps your memory. It makes you bounce, twirl, swoon, laugh, sing, and clap along. And there are so many different types! Soft rock, rap, hip hop, rock, R&B, alternative, classical, acapella, blues, and bagpipes are just some of them!
We wouldn't even have any type of dance without it. It inspires all waltz's, cha cha's, jig's, swings, breakdancing, and ballet. It can change our whole mood in two minutes! Again I say, what is it? It's sort of like time; allways changing, allways moving on, never explainable, never understandable, and we would all die if it completely stopped....at least I would ;) It's amazing! Learning some instruments can even make you smarter, help you study, and seriously help out with boredness. Just think about how much of your life has had something to do with music. Music lessons, singing as loud as possible when your home alone, tapping your toe, clapping your hands, bobbing your head, buying ipods, listening to the radio, talking about it with friends, going crazy because you have a song stuck in your head, praising God, humming, and whistling. My own thoughts usually even have background music playing across my head with them! I guess all I can really say it that it's definitely one of my more favorite parts of Gods ingenious creation!
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
sheep
Why is everyone a white sheep or a black sheep. Why is being a black sheep a bad thing? Why can't I be a green sheep?
Sunday, September 27, 2009
The Wedding
So guess what everybody????? My sister just got married!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Aaaaaaaahhhhhhh!!!!!!! It was amazing! Beautiful! Breath taking! Awe-inspiring! Fantastic! And all other wonderfully good descriptive words there are! I loved it. She looked just like a princess - not even kidding. She had a gorgeous dress with a little tiara in her up-do. And her hair stayed perfect the whole night. In fact, everything went perfect without a single hitch! :) I was so happy for her. I loved watching her float around with this perfect happiness on her face!
I was miserable. My dress was too tight. My hair was so poofy. My shoes hurt so bad. I had the worst headache ever! I had just gotten over being sick so I was tired. Not a single freind in the audience. And yet, I loved every moment of it! I loved it because for one night. For this one magical night. It was all about my sister. It wasn't about me. Everyone could care less about how I felt. And I loved it! My sister was glowing...literally I think. She had finally gotten one night in her life to be all about her. my sister is very much a type-A type person. She organizes every event, and allways helps out. Usually with no credit at all given. She allways pushes herself as far as she can go most of the time with nothing in it for herself. I'm amazed by her! I know I could never do that! I am very much too much fun oriented. But she is inspiring! And in as much as we sit around and joke about eachother, I love her...to death and beyond! And last night was exciting! Because she finally got to be the princess in the center of attention. I loved it!
I danced with her. A slow dance. I asked her what she was feeling. She said she felt like it was the happiest day of her life. And that it was perfect; just how she imagined she wanted it to be. I was ecstactic. This was one time that I didn't care about how horrible I was feeling or how bored I was. Because it was all about her. I didn't make a big scene or try to be the center of attention. It was her time to shine. I embraced it. She loved it. It was beautiful.
I'm so glad God has brought Justin into her life. They are perfect for eachother. She loves him. He adores her. He would do anything for her. They are perfect. I loved watching them last night. Together, now forever. It was a perfect picture of God and the church. His bride. Loving Him. And Him caring for his bride with a love beyond words. I didn't cry....but, as much as I hate to say it; I came close. I think God is so ingenious for coming up with marraige. It is a beautiful thing. Oh dear, now I am really starting to sound like a girly girl. lol Well I suppose I will stop before I just embarrass myself. Anyway, all I have left to say it that it was beautiful...and I've allready said that a thousand times so haha. :)
I was miserable. My dress was too tight. My hair was so poofy. My shoes hurt so bad. I had the worst headache ever! I had just gotten over being sick so I was tired. Not a single freind in the audience. And yet, I loved every moment of it! I loved it because for one night. For this one magical night. It was all about my sister. It wasn't about me. Everyone could care less about how I felt. And I loved it! My sister was glowing...literally I think. She had finally gotten one night in her life to be all about her. my sister is very much a type-A type person. She organizes every event, and allways helps out. Usually with no credit at all given. She allways pushes herself as far as she can go most of the time with nothing in it for herself. I'm amazed by her! I know I could never do that! I am very much too much fun oriented. But she is inspiring! And in as much as we sit around and joke about eachother, I love her...to death and beyond! And last night was exciting! Because she finally got to be the princess in the center of attention. I loved it!
I danced with her. A slow dance. I asked her what she was feeling. She said she felt like it was the happiest day of her life. And that it was perfect; just how she imagined she wanted it to be. I was ecstactic. This was one time that I didn't care about how horrible I was feeling or how bored I was. Because it was all about her. I didn't make a big scene or try to be the center of attention. It was her time to shine. I embraced it. She loved it. It was beautiful.
I'm so glad God has brought Justin into her life. They are perfect for eachother. She loves him. He adores her. He would do anything for her. They are perfect. I loved watching them last night. Together, now forever. It was a perfect picture of God and the church. His bride. Loving Him. And Him caring for his bride with a love beyond words. I didn't cry....but, as much as I hate to say it; I came close. I think God is so ingenious for coming up with marraige. It is a beautiful thing. Oh dear, now I am really starting to sound like a girly girl. lol Well I suppose I will stop before I just embarrass myself. Anyway, all I have left to say it that it was beautiful...and I've allready said that a thousand times so haha. :)
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Obscurity
I like blogging. Well, I liked posting the two posts I posted. The problem is.... now I don't know what to write. I feel like after my post about individuality, I ran out of things to tell the world. So I thought I'd ask. What do you want to hear about, world? Do you like funny posts? Serious posts? Or how about ones that inspire you to do something? Or is this all a waste of my time anyway since nobody follows my blog lol. I don't even know if anyone ever even saw the last two posts. MLIA :)
And you know what? I think I like it that way. I like (for now) just living in obscurity with no one caring what little ole me posted today on her blog. No screaming fans. No reporters. No creepers :) Of course, it might not allways be like that for me. If things go as I've planned and dreamed, one day, things wont be like this at all. I will be changing the world. But for now I'm happy with the life God has given me. I'm thankful for every uneventful day that I can curl up on the couch with a good book and popcorn. That doesn't stop me from dreaming big though. Infact, I dream huge....gigantic....colossal...I think you get the point. I am of the opinion that the more you dream and plan, the more you believe that you can do it, and the more you are driven to achieve your goals, the more you will succeed and achieve great things. I want to achieve great things....infact, I want to change the world. I think I will...one day. For now I'm just little ole me, in obscurity. The me that is extremely excited because her statement just rhymed! lol :) So yeah, those are the most recent random thoughts of me, myself, and I. Hope I didn't bore you to death. If you don't want to be bored you should read my last post about individuality....it was good....sooo umm yeah!
And you know what? I think I like it that way. I like (for now) just living in obscurity with no one caring what little ole me posted today on her blog. No screaming fans. No reporters. No creepers :) Of course, it might not allways be like that for me. If things go as I've planned and dreamed, one day, things wont be like this at all. I will be changing the world. But for now I'm happy with the life God has given me. I'm thankful for every uneventful day that I can curl up on the couch with a good book and popcorn. That doesn't stop me from dreaming big though. Infact, I dream huge....gigantic....colossal...I think you get the point. I am of the opinion that the more you dream and plan, the more you believe that you can do it, and the more you are driven to achieve your goals, the more you will succeed and achieve great things. I want to achieve great things....infact, I want to change the world. I think I will...one day. For now I'm just little ole me, in obscurity. The me that is extremely excited because her statement just rhymed! lol :) So yeah, those are the most recent random thoughts of me, myself, and I. Hope I didn't bore you to death. If you don't want to be bored you should read my last post about individuality....it was good....sooo umm yeah!
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Individuality
One book I've been reading of late is called stargirl. You may have heard of it.....or you might not. It's getting pretty popular. It's about a girl...and a boy I guess. Really it's a boy telling the story of a girl. But it's not a normal girl. It's the type of girl that plays her ukelele at lunch and sings happy birthday to people. Who decorates her desk at school everyday, wears long flowing dresses, always cheers for the losing team, and dances in the rain. This isn't an ordinary girl. It's a girl who isn't afraid to be herself. Those type of people are lost in the modern day society. Being yourself is frowned upon...even though all claim to love individuality, they really despise it. Media thrive on everyone wanting to look exactly alike. Movie makers thrive on everyone liking the same type of entertainement. Clothing stores thrive on everyone wearing the exact same thing. Our whole society needs everyone to act the same way, dress the same way, and be the same person. And then they freak out if one person has the nerve to different. That's the way it was in the book. All the kids loved stargirl (that was her name)! At least, they did at first. Yet she was too different for them. They drew a line, basically saying you can only be yourself up to a point. And that happens all over the world. Individuals are contained. They are told they are all fine and dandy up to a point...but they are never allowed to cross that point. And often times they don't. Because they know what follows if they do; they are shunned. They are put into a box that is labeled "Do Not Open". They are made out to be a freak by the media. They are frowned upon by people who have bought the lie that it's not ok to be yourself. And then...it ends. That person is snuffed out and ridiculed. And everyone forgets about them or puts them out of their mind.
Well I for one don't think that this should be the case. I mean, think about it. What if we lived in a world where everyone was encouraged to be themselves! To like their own things and have their own personality! And I'm not talkng about sinning; I don't mean those who feel like breaking the law and sinning should be able to whenever they want. You have to be able to draw a line when things beome just plain wrong. But what if we lived in a place where everyone was encouraged to decorate their desks in school, play the ukelele, have pet rats, read geeky books, and dream big. Where we actually were encouraged to be ourselves! Thats the type of world I want to live in. That's where I want be. And it starts with us. It starts with enough people who are willing to take the risk of being shunned. Who are willing to really find and be themselves. Are you willing?
I wrote a poem about it the other day. It goes like this;
You say your abnormal...what is normal anyway?
You say your not popular...what is so great about being popular, do popular people have better lives? Does God love them more?
You say you don't fit in...why do you want to be the exact same as everyone else? Do you want to be boring?
You say your not stylish...why do you want to wear the exact same clothes as everyone else? Shouldn't everyone have their own style? Don't you want to have yours? Or do you still want to be boring?
You say your weird...what is weird? Is it just being different? What is wrong with not being a clone?
You say nobody likes you...God does; He absolutely loves you! And I promise you there are people out there who like you. No matter who you are or what you've done. :)
Well I for one don't think that this should be the case. I mean, think about it. What if we lived in a world where everyone was encouraged to be themselves! To like their own things and have their own personality! And I'm not talkng about sinning; I don't mean those who feel like breaking the law and sinning should be able to whenever they want. You have to be able to draw a line when things beome just plain wrong. But what if we lived in a place where everyone was encouraged to decorate their desks in school, play the ukelele, have pet rats, read geeky books, and dream big. Where we actually were encouraged to be ourselves! Thats the type of world I want to live in. That's where I want be. And it starts with us. It starts with enough people who are willing to take the risk of being shunned. Who are willing to really find and be themselves. Are you willing?
I wrote a poem about it the other day. It goes like this;
You say your abnormal...what is normal anyway?
You say your not popular...what is so great about being popular, do popular people have better lives? Does God love them more?
You say you don't fit in...why do you want to be the exact same as everyone else? Do you want to be boring?
You say your not stylish...why do you want to wear the exact same clothes as everyone else? Shouldn't everyone have their own style? Don't you want to have yours? Or do you still want to be boring?
You say your weird...what is weird? Is it just being different? What is wrong with not being a clone?
You say nobody likes you...God does; He absolutely loves you! And I promise you there are people out there who like you. No matter who you are or what you've done. :)
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
First Post
Hello there! This is my first time dabbling into the ready and waiting world of blogging. It's something I've always wanted to try but never have. Please excuse me if I randomly start speaking in old English...it's a bad habit I have from reading too many fantasy books. Now what to talk about first...hmmm. I was flowing along great until I actually started thinking about what to talk about lol. Well when all else fails I talk about me. That sounded sort of conceited...but I don't know enough about you (or much else for that matter) to talk about that so I shall resort to what I know completely inside and out, me! I'm just a crazy short girl living in a very big world. And don't let those strange people who like cliche sayings fool you, it really is very big!
As I mentioned before I like reading as well as writing, singing, shopping, playing guitar, listening to music, drawing, painting, acting and a whole bunch of other things. I'm definitely an artsy person - I love all things creative! Give me a coke can and I'll make it art!
All in all I'm just a happy person that hopes my being here has made the world just a little bit of a brighter place. :)
As I mentioned before I like reading as well as writing, singing, shopping, playing guitar, listening to music, drawing, painting, acting and a whole bunch of other things. I'm definitely an artsy person - I love all things creative! Give me a coke can and I'll make it art!
All in all I'm just a happy person that hopes my being here has made the world just a little bit of a brighter place. :)
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