Hello, dear ones. I know you've been feeling neglected of late. I know you've been wondering why in the world I haven't posted anything. I know you've been alone on your computer for hours waiting for anything new on my blog. I know you've been raging around your house crying and screaming because your favorite blogger in the world has disappeared AND LEFT YOU ALL ALONE!!!
Ok, well, maybe not. Maybe that's just how I imagine you. lol. You probably really don't care. But, if there is any small chance that you've been wondering where I've gone, than this post is for you. :) I'll just be catching you up on my thoughts recently.
So where to start.... hmm. This is difficult you see, for prom was a very very long time ago. Well lets start off by saying that I had a birthday a while back and am now officially...ummm...older. :)
It was sort of milestone birthday. I mean, kind of. It was an age I had previously thought as old and an actual "big kid". One of those God-like teenagers that you revere as you hide behind your mothers skirt. Even just last year I had always seen it as more of an "official" age. Well, anywho, now I am that age, and, well, nothing much has changed. I didn't suddenly undergo a drastic transformation in which aliens took me away and turned me into a scary person. I just...got older. Yes, I have done a lot of maturing lately. But I don't think that has as much to do with how old I am, I think it has more to do with how close to God I've been. And that's really the most exciting thing! :D I have been completely falling head over heals in love with Him. We're even engaged!!!! He just the best fiance ever! He makes me laugh. He's always there holding me when I need Him. He's not afraid to tell me to shut up when I need to. lol And He completely understands me. I mean, He freaking knows me better than I know myself. It's pretty awesome :)
The best example I have, though, to describe our relationship is in a movie. Prince Caspian. Go watch it...now. Right after you've read all the Chronicles of Narnia books. Cause they're pretty much the best. books. ever. Anyway, when you watch the movie I want you to look in particular to Lucy and Aslan's relationship. She sees Him before all of her siblings, He invades her dreams, He gives her strength, He calls her dear one, He grows side by side with her, and He stands quietly by her side giving her the strength to be brave in the midst of a battle. It's really a beautiful picture. In fact, one of my favorite parts of that movie is when the entire Telmarine army is retreating back to storm across the Baruna bridge. Suddenly, they all just stop. They stop cause of the shock of what they see on the other side. One little girl, Lucy, stands alone with her dagger drawn. But then, she's not alone, Aslan appears out of nowhere beside her. She smiles. The entire army falters for a moment. The sight is just too strange. Then they shake themselves off and charge forward. That's when Aslan roars and the river itself rises up in the shape of a man and drowns the army. It just a breathtaking scene. But my favorite part of all, is simple Lucy standing, dagger drawn, with no fear, for Aslan is by her side. It almost makes me want to cry. Its a beautiful testimony of Gods love for us. He's always there. That's what I've learnt this year. And now He's my best friend. (and He's the best one I've ever had) :)
It's taken me a lot to get through this stage. But the fact is, I'm here now, and I never want to go back.
I'm sorry if I've been boring you, but, if you find talk about God boring, than this blog probably isn't for you. But, I digress, let me continue on my journey of catching you up with my life.
First, let me ask you if you remember my post about individuality. Do you? Well, if you do, please discard your memory. I no longer agree with my old philosophy. I figured that live is most definitely not about being yourself. It's about being God. What? You ask. Be God? You're not supposed to be God. You're supposed to give up and let God be God. In response I say, exactly! Confused yet? Just take a look at Galatians 2:20 (which, by the way, is my new favorite verse)
"I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me."
I want you to take special not of the part that says "It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me." Were not to be ourselves, were to be God. Or, were to let God be Himself in us. When people see us, they should see God. Not us. Not our personalities. But God, and His perfect personalities. And it all starts with surrender. You have to surrender your faults, and your trying to be like the world, as well as you have to surrender who you are, and your individuality. It's as simple as that. :)
Well, lets see, what else... this post sure is awful long already and my mom is waiting for the computer. So, how would you like a quick summary of everything else huh? Ok then, here we go:
I went to two awesome camps, saw God in amazing ways, saw lives utterly changed and delivered, felt the holy spirit like never before, received the gift of tongues, made new friendships, and strengthened acquaintances into good friendships, had lots of fun, saw lots of movies, (I really recommend How to Train Your Dragon!!) painted lots of pictures, danced in the rain, wore pretty dresses, had a dog eat my flip flops, made videos with my best friend. Made a youtube account, ate lots of popcorn and sherbert :), is going to sing the Lords prayer at her cousins wedding in two weeks!!!, been a part of many hilarious inside jokes, saved up money for a mission trip, lead a song on the worship team in front of an entire camp, and didn't eat very many pickles. The End. ;)
