I'm not very smart...

Some people would say I'm a smart person. I wouldn't agree. In terms of what the world deems 'smarts' I have relatively little. I do average school work, get pretty good grades just because I do my work, and I have probably very very little street smarts.

I'm not the brightest bulb in the world, because it's not what I seek after. I seek after wisdom. And yes, there is a difference.

I may not be able to tell you the answer to a complicated algebra problem or all of what makes up a cell, but I can talk about God for hours.

I may not be able to tell when someone is joking or not, but I have the discernment to see if what they genuinely say in all seriousness is from the Lord or not.

Just things like that. My wisdom doesn't come from anything I could learn in school, but by simply reading the word and seeking after what God has to say. Listening to Him. Letting Him be my teacher. It's definitely the 'smarts' I'm looking for.

But you know whats incredibly fascinating to me??? The more I seek wisdom, the more God teaches me about love.

Now I know, I know I harp on this a lot. But it's only because the deeper I go with Christ the more He simply reveals to me about the concept of love.

It's not an earthly concept. It's most definitely not a human idea.

Love was around before the earth was around. Love was around before anything was around. You know how?

God is love.

So, in a way, He has been teaching me about Himself. But I'm getting ahead of myself, let me tell you a bit about what I've learned recently. :)

Love drives us. The need for love, the ability to love, the unnatural way we defeat our selfish nature to invest ourselves in other people and things. Love doesn't make sense. But we feel the need to practice it anyway. And it's because we've discovered that it makes the world go 'round.

I mean think about it. Love is not natural. Part of the definition of love is to give of yourself, un-selfishly, for the betterment or investment in another person.
Putting someone else's needs above your own.

We're humans. We don't do that. We are essentially 100% selfish creatures. You don't have to teach a toddler/baby to hold onto it's toys, never share, and cry when anything at all happens that it doesn't like. Quite the opposite actually. So the very fact that we are capable of such a level of unselfishness points to a creator being putting that capability into our hearts.

It's amazing isn't it???

Love.

Lovelovelove. Such a painful, sacrificial, terrible, wonderful, giving, long-suffering, patient, joyful, gentle, literally out-of-this-world experience we take for granted everyday.

And to think that God loves us?? Nasty, selfish, non-sacrificial, undeserving, wretches of sin that we are??

Inconceivable.

And that we nasty creatures somehow find it in our hearts to unselfishly love one another, and even God!? (albeit far from perfectly)

Also inconceivable.

Isn't God great?? :D  He surpasses all the fathoms of my finite brain and blows it out of the water. I can't even begin to comprehend the greatness, complexity, and brilliance of His mind. His majesty.

I simply cannot wait to worship Him declaring His praises for eternity by His side.

Oh to sit at Your feet, continually casting down my crown, shouting my love for you. Broken though it may be. It is there. All. For You forevermore. Because You first loved me, and gave me the capability to love you in return.

Hallelujah.